it's that time again!

haha... oh marc. my favorite man. you think you are so clever.

so i have come to the conclusion that i freaking have too much to say. so i put off writing and put off and put off... you get the idea. then finally, i decide i must write and i explode. this is a habit of mine i suppose- but it could be worse. i could be picking my nose or something awkward. so this habit i will accept- and YOU can accept the fact that i will write every few weeks and those every few weeks you will find a gigantuous post overflowing with paragraphs of greatness and inspirational nothingness. i cannot promise that they will all make sense to you... once again i am just going to empty out my brain and what comes out, comes out. so sit back and enjoy!

mmmmmmmmmmmmm....... chocolate. taste it. love it. crave it. hunt for it. lick your fingers when its gone. ravenously look for more. steal someone elses. ah yeah.

long talks are the best things ever. i wish people would take time to have such great conversations. one thing that bothers me so much is people who have to be entertained constantly. those people who need ongoing stimulation- video games, movies, music, movement, etc. why can't we just sit and talk? it isnt boring... and if you are bored- well- then you can leave! haha just kidding but really... there is nothing like sitting in a room of friends- people you love and care about- and just talking. asking questions about each other. digging a little deeper. put all that superficial crap to the side and learn about each other. i think it is so fascinating to learn about people. i LOVE questions. i love hearing about people and what makes them tick. what makes them happy or sad. what they are scared of or what they look forward to. it is a really great experience. we dont do it enough sadly. but when we do, it is unforgettable! some of my favorite memories deal with good talks and deep conversations. so i guess to sum it up, turn off the tv. put away that video game and joystick. turn down the music and open your mouth. TALK. LISTEN. ask questions. dig into a mind. you won't regret it :)

the world needs talkers and listeners. this is another thing that the world seems to forget. have you ever been around someone who cant seem to shut up? who is constantly jabbering and you simply give up adding in your own thoughts because it is not worth it to fight with the blabbermouth. there are people like this all over the place! i think it is so important to listen, not just talk. i know it can be fun to tell your stories and you have ideas and opinions you want to share, but so does everyone else. lets take turns talking and stop the competitive tug-of-war for the floor.
this swings both ways too. some people never talk and only listen. they have given up trying to fight for the floor and resort to silence of the mouth. but everyone needs someone to listen to them- even the listeners.
so show you care- talk when it is appropriate but also listen. ask questions and listen to answers. let the people who are usually quiet get a word in... maybe prod them a little to get it out of them. but make sure you are doing both some talking and some listening.

muddy buddies are the greatest creation on this earth. oh baby.

you ever fallen in love with someone that you barely see (if you see them at all), but talk to all the time? this is an odd way to fall for someone, but it is something that is very interesting. this type of emotional attachment is surprisingly strong and could almost be better then a more physical relationship. of course, it wouldnt hurt to see that special someone more often ;)

so you are talking to a person, a friend or aquaintance- whatever- and you notice they have a black something stuck in their front tooth... very noticeable and obvious. are you the type of person who immediately tells them there is something in their teeth? or the other type: do you ignore it and let someone else tell them hours later after they have talked to 50 more people? sit there and try to look elsewhere but are suddenly drawn to that green particle of food and cant seem to look away- giving that poor person a complex in which they run to the bathroom promptly after talking to you to see what the heck you kept staring at? psh. if you are one of those types of people, you should be burned at the stake. haha k not really, but please tell that poor person! there is nothing more embarrasing then to look in the mirror and realize you have a big chunk of lunch in your tooth when it is nearly dinnertime and you have talked and smiled at 100 people (who didnt have the decency to tell you). so next time i have a flake in my nose or an eyebooger or a piece of crap in my teeth, TELL ME. thank you.

some jobs suck.

some people suck.

so love one another.

i fight with her the most, i get along with her the most. i hate her the most, i love her the most.

my fluffy is adorable. how in the freak did we come up with fluffy and mama fluffy?!

is that a man or a woman? how many times has this annoying question clouded your mind? there is nothing more bothersome then seeing a person and not being able to determine the gender of...... it. this one time, i was at a swimming pool in montana. i am all in my suit, ready with swim toys in hand, eager to leap into the cool water and act like the fish that i really am. then i see it. a person swimming in that lucious cool pool. they are wearing an old t shirt- unisex- and long shorts. its a... man. yeah a man. wait- no its a girl- definitely woman... um... maybe a male... uh.... female? a unik?! WHAT THE FREAK IS IT?!?!?!?! then the thought comes: there is no way in heck i am getting in there until i find out what that thing is. so i sit and wait- hoping it will get up and go to the bathroom so i can see what one they go into. then i get the brilliant idea to listen closely for a name. someone looks at the "it" and yells something. dang i cant quite hear them! i tune in a little more, secretly hoping it is something gender obvious- like rose or daisy or butch or bubba- the it suddenly becomes clear: taylor. just my freaking luck. needless to say, i didnt swim that day. and i never found out what "it" was. it still bugs me to this day....

serendipity has got to be one of the most adorable shows on the earth. this tale of destiny and fate is mesmerizing and one cant help but be giddy while watching it! this show is so frustrating as well though... the audience can clearly see that the two people are perfect for each other and that fate really is trying to bring them together. alas, they ignore the signs and miss out on so much!!!! luckily, they are given numerous chances and finally realize they are the perfect match. sigh. classic movie. CAUTION: THOSE OF YOU INFLICTED WITH THE DISEASE HOPELESSROMANTICISM WILL BE EFFECTED BY THE CONTENTS IN THIS MOVIE. SYMPTOMS INCLUDE (BUT ARE NOT LIMITED TO): SEVERE GIDDINESS, THE INABILITY TO STOP SMILING, STRONG URGES TO LEAP IN THE AIR AND SKIP AROUND, A YEARNING TO KISS ANYONE IN REACH, AN INABILITY TO STOP LAUGHING, REPETATIVE SIGHING, AN ACHE IN THE CHEST (where the heart is), A STRONG DESIRE TO FALL IN LOVE, A WANT TO GRAB A PILLOW AND SHOVE YOUR FACE IN IT, RANDOM SCREAMS AND SHOUTS OF JOY EEKING OUT OF YOUR BODY, ETC. CONSIDER THIS A WARNING.

not all cowboys are wierdies, right? i'll cross my fingers...

what is it about an accent that is so dang sexy?!?! this is one mystery that i will never understand. the different way those foreigners twang those words is more then a little attractive. mmmmm baby.

all right i am done for today.
gracias amigos.

el amor de mi vida

i want to take some time to tell you all about a young man who has changed my life. he is very handsome and smart. he smells good too. his name?? it shall remain anonymous...(marc ortega). if only every young man (or old for that matter) could be as COOL as him.


i am kirena and this is my story

random thoughts

there is a lot on my mind today... bits and pieces that probably won't make sense to you, but i want to get them out for my own enjoyment. here goes!

i heard the most profound quote today: music is the universal language. wow... good one huh? too bad i can't put my name on it. it is so true. in all cultures, continents, and countries you can find music. it is fundamental to life! can you even imagine a life without music... ewe. what a terrible thought. i know that in my own personal life, music is so important. i am always listening to a song or humming... something to do with music. it is so intriguing the effect music has on people. it can uplift or bring you down. it can make you giddy and love-sick or sad and alone. the power in those simple notes is incredible. sigh. i love music.

i love my daddy... you never know what you have until it is gone.

boys are blind. REALLY! can a girl be any more obvious? this is not the first time i have felt like this and it sure as heck wont be the last. but honestly. men! come on... open your eyes and see... don't just look. SEE. you will be very surprised at what you find. meanwhile, you will make a bunch of girls very happy :)

hopeless romantics... sigh. why is it hopeless?!!? why can't people change and make it real... not just a "silly, unrealistic dream". i refuse to believe that there are no gentlemen out there. REFUSE. i have met some... like my institute teacher, irwin. he is amazing. and my ward's old bishop... he was incredible. both of these men are modern day princes. there have to be more. boys take a look at men like these and strive to be a prince for your own little princess you will find one day. i know she will appreciate it. then, on the girls' end, we will try to be the best we can be for our princes. sounds like a good trade to me.

laughter... it really is like a medicine. i am so appreciative for this marvelous thing. i LOVE laughing.

did i mention that boys are blind?

i hate roots. when you color your hair and your natual hair starts poking through. i suppose the smart way to fix this is to not color your hair... but where is the fun in that?! it is a pain though... you have to touch it up just right or bad things could happen. like your roots could turn out darker then the rest of your hair. or you didnt leave it on long enough and they are too light. sometimes you might miss a spot and have a random place on your head that has blonde roots climbing out. what a hassle! oh the lengths a girl will go...

nosy people can drive a person crazy. i am at fault with this sometimes too... but i try and catch myself. but you know those people who are always looking over your shoulder- reading your texts, emails, listening to phone calls, jumping into conversations and obnoxiously begging to be told what is going on, butting in a serious convo and wanting to know all about it. it is really bothersome. the world would be a better place if we would be more cautious about this... dont be annoying and have to know everything. it's okay to not know! you WILL live... promise :)

am i a clean freak? i wonder at times. i think i have ocd. i look around and i am appaled at the way some people live. i find myself doing crazy things- like cleaning other people's apartments, straightening up department stores, folding clothes that are thrown on a table in a store, etc. am i crazy? i like things to be clean... it is more peaceful and happy. nothing like walking into a clean home. plus your environment has an effect on you. why live in a mess? all it does is make you cranky. so come on... clean up after yourself and let everyone else live without your sour attitude because you have been unknowingly affected by your dirty living space.

CLOSE THE DOOR! all the way.

why is our world centered around money. everything we do deals with these stupid pieces of paper and cheap metal circles. why? why cant we just live day to day to live. be with each other instead of waste time working to get money, going to school so you can get a career to make money, etc. this seems so silly to me. why don't we do something about it?

obama is president. the second coming is COMING.

competition. why is this so commonly found in our world today? it seems like everything is a competition in our day and age. why do we need to compare ourselves to others and show them up to prove we are better then they are. this is ridiculous. there are always those people who have to compete with everything. if you have a story, they have one thats better. if something happened to you, something happened to them. if you are having a bad day, they have had one that was much worse. your life sucks, theirs is ten times more awful. if you are singing, they start singing louder. there are people like this all over. dont they drive you crazy? let's stop this competing crap and let everyone be themselves. that is enough. then, we will stop showing everyone up. let a person have a moment in the light. everyone wants it. to those people who are always showing up others: SHUT UP. thanks :)

facial hair is sick. shave it off. a little is okay but let's kill the men who invented handlebar mustaches, soul patches, ANY mustache, and thick chops. let it go and gimme that razor!

alone time is really great. necessary for life.

i am going to marry my best friend. i dont want a relationship that is just an infatuation. i want it to be a deep friendship- deeper then anything... one that will last. one with someone that knows you so well... almost as well as you know yourself. that is true love. p.s. the girly romantic stuff can still happen with your best friend ;)

"romeo save me, i've been feeling so alone. i keep waiting for you but you never come. is this in my head? i don't know what to think..." what a great song...

love kirena