FOREVER AND ALWAYS
by: taylor swift
Once upon a time
I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye
We caught onto something.
I hold onto the night
You looked me in the eye
And told me you loved me.
Were you just kidding?
Cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down.
We almost never speak.
I don't feel welcome anymore.
Baby what happened?
Please tell me cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door.
And I stare, at the phone...
He still hasn't called,
And you feel so low you cant feel, nothing at all,
And you flashback to when he said
Forever and always.
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom,- everything is wrong.
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone.
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always.
Was I out of line? Did I say something way to honest?
Made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute.
Now I'm not so sure...
So here's to everything-
Coming down to nothing.
Here's to silence
That cuts me to the core.
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute but I don't anymore.
And I stare at the phone.
He still hasn't called,
And you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all.
And you flashback to when he said
Forever and always.
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom- everything is wrong.
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone.
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always.
Did you mean it baby?
I don't think so...
Back up, baby back up.
Did you forget everything?
Back up, baby back up.
Did you forget everything?
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom- everything is wrong.
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone.
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always.
And I stare at the phone.
He still, hasn't called.
And you feel so low you cant feel, nothing at all.
And you flashback to when we said
Forever and always.
And it rains in your bedroom- everything is wrong.
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone.
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always.
Didn't mean it baby...
You Said forever and always- Yeah.
love this song <3
Friday, January 22, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
A mental mixup
oh boy.
isn't it crazy the things that life can bring?
i was thinking the other day about how ironic it can be...
i dont know how your life goes, but if it is anything like mine, it can be so aggravating! most days, my life is simple and clear. i am a happy girl and things will be going perfectly for weeks at a time. then suddenly it seems, one seemingly perfect day changes faces and life throws a curve ball...
or six.
is that not the most obnoxious thing?! haha. rather than have one little thing every day to have to worry about at a time, one little problem or trial, i have weeks of carefree frolicking pass and they all hit at once.
oh life :)
i realize that life is beautiful- it really is. sometimes things go wrong and problems arise- mistakes are made and trials come, but in the end, it really is such a blessing to be alive and well. of course, things can always be worse. i am a firm believer in this... but you know, sometimes it is hard to keep that in mind. to remember that there are those out there in this dark world that have it a thousand times worse than you. people who would switch circumstances with you in a heartbeat if it were a possiblity.
in a way though, i am glad that it's not.
i am also glad for those bumps in the road that attack at all angles at the same time. in the end, after it all is over and done with, things brighten up and i realize, once again, that it wasn't so bad and recognize the good that came from it. everything happens for a reason.
another thing that has simply blown me away lately is the way that life works out.
me being me, i think i know what is best for myself. i have been planning out my life since i was a little girl- always imagining where i would be and what i would be doing at certain times in my life. i even thought i knew exactly WHO i would be. it is an interesting experience to reach those milestones in my life and compare my previous plans to the actual events that took place. sometimes, i am the smallest bit disappointed in myself... it's a little humbling to realize that you aren't the person you hoped you would be when you were little... but with that comes the resolution to change. i welcome change for the better. there are also those instances that you stumble upon and realize you ended up in a COMPLETELY difference place than you ever imagined. i cannot even emphasize the amount of times this has been the outcome in my life. with my "miss kirena knows best" attitude, i sometimes forget that she doesn't... however smart i may be, however independent i am or set on something, kirena DOESN'T know best.
that is a hard thing to accept.
but i do know, that once i get that beaten into my head- once i open my mind to that one person who really DOES know best, then i will end up in the places that i need to be. i will be touched by the people that i need to be influenced by. i will walk on the hearts of those that really need me. i will do the best and be the best that i can be.
and THAT makes it all worth it.
so hello, life.
this is kirena, and i welcome anything you choose to throw at me.
i am determined to walk hand in hand with that one person who knows what is best for me. with that bond, i cannot fail.
i will not fail.
oh,
p.s. i love you.
isn't it crazy the things that life can bring?
i was thinking the other day about how ironic it can be...
i dont know how your life goes, but if it is anything like mine, it can be so aggravating! most days, my life is simple and clear. i am a happy girl and things will be going perfectly for weeks at a time. then suddenly it seems, one seemingly perfect day changes faces and life throws a curve ball...
or six.
is that not the most obnoxious thing?! haha. rather than have one little thing every day to have to worry about at a time, one little problem or trial, i have weeks of carefree frolicking pass and they all hit at once.
oh life :)
i realize that life is beautiful- it really is. sometimes things go wrong and problems arise- mistakes are made and trials come, but in the end, it really is such a blessing to be alive and well. of course, things can always be worse. i am a firm believer in this... but you know, sometimes it is hard to keep that in mind. to remember that there are those out there in this dark world that have it a thousand times worse than you. people who would switch circumstances with you in a heartbeat if it were a possiblity.
in a way though, i am glad that it's not.
i am also glad for those bumps in the road that attack at all angles at the same time. in the end, after it all is over and done with, things brighten up and i realize, once again, that it wasn't so bad and recognize the good that came from it. everything happens for a reason.
another thing that has simply blown me away lately is the way that life works out.
me being me, i think i know what is best for myself. i have been planning out my life since i was a little girl- always imagining where i would be and what i would be doing at certain times in my life. i even thought i knew exactly WHO i would be. it is an interesting experience to reach those milestones in my life and compare my previous plans to the actual events that took place. sometimes, i am the smallest bit disappointed in myself... it's a little humbling to realize that you aren't the person you hoped you would be when you were little... but with that comes the resolution to change. i welcome change for the better. there are also those instances that you stumble upon and realize you ended up in a COMPLETELY difference place than you ever imagined. i cannot even emphasize the amount of times this has been the outcome in my life. with my "miss kirena knows best" attitude, i sometimes forget that she doesn't... however smart i may be, however independent i am or set on something, kirena DOESN'T know best.
that is a hard thing to accept.
but i do know, that once i get that beaten into my head- once i open my mind to that one person who really DOES know best, then i will end up in the places that i need to be. i will be touched by the people that i need to be influenced by. i will walk on the hearts of those that really need me. i will do the best and be the best that i can be.
and THAT makes it all worth it.
so hello, life.
this is kirena, and i welcome anything you choose to throw at me.
i am determined to walk hand in hand with that one person who knows what is best for me. with that bond, i cannot fail.
i will not fail.
oh,
p.s. i love you.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Not done yet :)
A little while back, i wrote this little poem. It was one of those things that just exploded at my fingertips and i forgot to put it on here. so here you go :)
Checkmate
By: Kirena Allen :)
Sometimes,
I sit here and wait for you to make your move.
Wrestling with possibilities,
I wonder what path you'll take.
To put it in simple terms,
one move will bring you closer,
and the other takes you just out of reach.
Time after time,
I've watched you sit in silence,
a silence that screams at my memories
to fade away and be forgotten.
Once again,
you take another step back,
the result of doing nothing,
putting yet another square between us.
As if we need more distance.
Living a lie of maybe,
high hopes begin to fade as your figure stands still.
Another day passes.
Another step back.
And another.
Holding on tight,
I squint trying to catch a glimpse,
imagine a sign,
recognize a clue,
distinguish a hint.
Silence.
That's when i realize,
you're just a pawn.
And here I was, thinking i was aiming at a king.
Happy new year, love.
Checkmate
By: Kirena Allen :)
Sometimes,
I sit here and wait for you to make your move.
Wrestling with possibilities,
I wonder what path you'll take.
To put it in simple terms,
one move will bring you closer,
and the other takes you just out of reach.
Time after time,
I've watched you sit in silence,
a silence that screams at my memories
to fade away and be forgotten.
Once again,
you take another step back,
the result of doing nothing,
putting yet another square between us.
As if we need more distance.
Living a lie of maybe,
high hopes begin to fade as your figure stands still.
Another day passes.
Another step back.
And another.
Holding on tight,
I squint trying to catch a glimpse,
imagine a sign,
recognize a clue,
distinguish a hint.
Silence.
That's when i realize,
you're just a pawn.
And here I was, thinking i was aiming at a king.
Happy new year, love.
A few thoughts....
A quote by Taylor Swift has recently stolen my heart.
I adore it!
"To me, "FEARLESS" is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into you freshman year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright...That's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.That's why I write all these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS."
I couldn't agree more.
Thanks, Taylor :)
<3
ALSO: another fabulous quote...
I signed my name.
Will you sign yours?
THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE UNASHAMED
"I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slow down, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tarred visions, worldly talking, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals. I no longer need pre-eminence, positions, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, am uplifted by prayer, and labor with power. My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven. My road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions are few, but my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, divided, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity. I won't give up, shut up, or let up until I have stayed up, stored up, and paid up for the cause of Christ. I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. And when He returns for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me. My banner will be clear."
(quoted from a quote by Elder Henry B. Eyring)
I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed.
Kirena Dawn
I adore it!
"To me, "FEARLESS" is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into you freshman year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright...That's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.That's why I write all these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS."
I couldn't agree more.
Thanks, Taylor :)
<3
ALSO: another fabulous quote...
I signed my name.
Will you sign yours?
THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE UNASHAMED
"I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slow down, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tarred visions, worldly talking, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals. I no longer need pre-eminence, positions, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, am uplifted by prayer, and labor with power. My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven. My road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions are few, but my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, divided, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity. I won't give up, shut up, or let up until I have stayed up, stored up, and paid up for the cause of Christ. I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. And when He returns for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me. My banner will be clear."
(quoted from a quote by Elder Henry B. Eyring)
I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed.
Kirena Dawn
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