Twelve Hour Work Day (need I say more)

oh boy.

here i am. at a desk. at work.
i've been here since seven o'clock.

five hours ago.

and i have hardly moved.

GIVE ME MY SANITY!

so here i am. at a desk. at work.
i've been here since seven o'clock.

five hours ago.

and i've decided to do something.
write.
on my blog.
its about time you know.

you know what else it is about time for?
KIRENA'S WORD VOMIT
(throughout the course of a loooong day)

ready for it?
muah ha ha.

do you ever laugh at your own stuff?
hee hee. now, don't judge me. i am not vain or egotistical, but i think i am sometimes quite funny. here i was. at a desk. at work, and i decided to read my old posts on my blog. i went through and read everything that i ever wrote. it took me forty minutes (pathetic).
anyways, i was reading, and DANG, i was laughing my head off! there are some very clever things in those silly posts, that i am quite proud of. i know that i cannot be alone in feeling like this... you ever think you are funny? funny enough to the point that you sit at a desk, alone, at work, during a 12 hour day, and just start laughing because you think you are so clever?
i do. i did. today. just barely. good times.

the fourth kind. BS.
let me explain. ayer, i went to the movies with my good ole pal. we saw the newest alien attraction "the fourth kind"... ooooooh. this movie, allegedly, is a true story. it takes place in a little hodunk town in alaska- nome. the movie is a mix of both actual live footage and the director's interpretation of what happened. i must admit, some of the "real footage" was a little on the creeper side... there are bits and pieces of the story that i really cannot explain. BUT honestly... ALIENS? come on. this is just one thing that i cannot get into!
the sad thing is though, these people are one hundred percent CONVINCED that they have been abducted. that they have seen these other world intelligences and had contact with them. that was almost the scariest part of the whole movie... the people that were so sure. so positive that what "happened" was real. i just have one word for it all: BIZARRE. maybe one day i will eat my words, but until some owl-obsessed creature-thing speaks sumerian to me and drags me from my bed, leads me to their leader and drills into my brain, i will remain a skeptic.

"under the weather". what the eff? what the HECK does this mean? or i guess i should ask, why in the heck does it mean what it does? who came up with such a ridiculous phrase? i mean really. why is it, that when someone says they are feeling "under the weather", we automatically know that they are a poor sickie. the english language will never cease to befuddle my blonde brain. but i have made a decision: if ya'll can say "under the weather", then i am going to start the next best trend...
"how are you doing, kirena?"
"well, now that you mention it, i am feeling a little beneath the climate."

a funny thing about life, that i have had to learn, is that sometimes, you just have to wait. patience. what a vile word. REALLY! you say it to anyone and they give you a look of horror. shiver. this has been a really hard lesson for me to learn. in all honesty, i LOATHE waiting for anything. i was not blessed with the ability to calmly and rationally wait for ANYTHING that i want. sigh. BUT, i am trying hard and i am working on it. and therefore, i have come to the conclusion that sometimes, it is completely necessary to, yes, i am going to say it, be patient (i am sad to admit). whether it be for your chili to be warmed up, the drive thru line to get smaller, a special someone to come back home, the commercials to get done so you can finish that favorite show, the weekend to come, or for an answer to fervent prayer, sometimes, you just have to sit back, take a breath, relax, and wait. or in my case, let my eyes twitch, bite my lip, tap on the desk, check the mail, glance at the clock, grunt in annoyance, and... wait.
hey now,
it's a work in progress ;)

another thing that could very well drive me to insanity: missing things/people.
i get so tired of always feeling like there is an empty part of my heart! whether it be my family because i am away at college, college because i am with my family, friends, certain boys in certain places, no matter where i am in life, it seems like there is always some little thing that i wish was there- a person that i wish wasnt missing.
you know the funniest thing about missing someone, i swear on my life as soon as they are gone, EVERYTHING begins to remind you of that person. suddenly, their name appears in movie credits, on the news, is yelled at the park, on a billboard, suddenly everyone is talking about cloverfield, it's everywhere!! everything you do reminds you of that person. eating empanadas, putting on lip gloss, walking through the mall, body spray spritzing, playing at daybreak park, the list goes on and on! you find yourself imagining and role-playing how that person would act in every situation or activity you do. every person you are with just seems to be barely out of reach of how fantastic the said "person being missed" was. isnt it truly ironic how when that person seems to leave you, suddenly they are all around you?! you find yourself smelling their scent even! what is it that makes one suddenly haunted by the one that has gone? life is truly a wonder, and i will never quite understand why these sorts of things happen.
they sure don't make being patient any easier :P

mmmmmm bread. an amazing invention :)

i suddenly have the strongest urge to play the piano. of course, those dire times always come when, there is in fact, no piano in sight. so here i sit, at a desk, at work. with no piano :P
recently, i have gained a huge love of the piano. i've always taken advantage of it- always having one around. when i left for the good ole schoolio in logan, i suddenly realized how much i loved having one nearby. i missed it (go figure). i did the only thing i knew to do- i turned to pandora.com, haha. that jim brickman radio saved me!
so i guess that is one of the best things about being home right now... i have access to a piano whenever i want it :) oh, except of course when i am stranded at work for twelve hours :P haha.
sigh. working on patience, kirena :P

two is better than one- by taylor swift and boys like girls. one of the most adorable songs i have heard for a long time! have you ever heard those words! they are simply beautiful! i wish i could write like that... i mean really! that is one song that is perfectly applicable i think to many situations. gotta love it.

michael buble. gimme a piece of that delicious man! his talent will never cease to amaze me! that is one man with a supreme voice from heaven haha. another great song: "haven't met you yet". another cute one :P

you ever have a bolt of inspiration that just rocks your socks off? i have had a few of those and one day i will talk about them more, haha. i am outta here!

adios 12 hour shift.

ah yeah ;)

love kireeena

100+Things That Make Kirena Truly Happy (cont)...

okay i AM going to keep going lol
101. mark
102. sunrises or sunsets anywhere (but especially on the beach)
103. acoustic music- i never realized how much i loved it until pandora.com came into my life!
104. pandora.com :) haha
105. getting slurpees or any type of slushie
106. biting people
107. watching scary movies with bunch of wimpy girls... haha oh ladies. i love you :)
108. watching dumb people eat goldfish
109. his name- just hearing it makes my tummy flip
110. when people play with my hair- or brush it for that matter. just touching it!
111. mint truffles
112. robert downy jr.
113. hot long showers in winter
114. youtube
115. kissing someone i love
116. bridgerland girl talks
117. reading sweet song lyrics
118. soaking in silence
119. buffy the vampire slayer... yeah i know :P
120. vacuuming my room
121. being sung to or having someone play music for me
122. pop rocks ;) ;)
123. plain lays- there is something about them!
124. olive garden breadsticks
125. hand tickles
126. walking on a dewy lawn early in the morning
127. driving a truck
128. running through the sprinklers
129. fighting for covers or blankets ;)
130. hearing my name- or seeing someone personalize a note or letter or text with my name
131. lord of the rings marathons
132. having a kid climb up on my lap
133. short lines at disneyland
134. little caesars runs with yinz that are always followed by juicy stories
135. getting my hair cut
136. looking at pictures
137. hearing people's stories
138. looking at someone and having a total conversation without even speaking
139. being asked to dance
140. wearing formal dresses
141. watching people sleep (not in a creepy way!!!!!)
142. twilight discussions... they can be so funny
143. eye contact
144. watching a guy play with a little kid or baby
145. watching people with their families
146. lingering hugs when saying goodbye
147. the ability to "lock" texts you want to keep forever
148. receiving pic messages
149. talking with my mom while cooking- good times.
150. best friends that you truly love

A bona fide poem from yours truly :)

PHEW!
it's finally done! Been working on this for a few weeks... finally feel like it is okay to post ;)
so here it is.... a bona fide poem by yours truly :)

So what, she walked.

By: Kirena Allen


"She didn't always walk.

Once upon a naive time,
Life was simple- easy to define.
There was no need to walk.

A girl lived on, happy and free.
Clouds came, but still she could see.
Rarely she walked.

The girl matured, and as it tends to do,
Life got complicated, problems grew.
To fix it, she walked.

Time passed, and as it floated by,
The girl realized something she couldn't deny.
With anticipation, waiting for a reply,
She decided to walk.

Moments of joy, times she'll never forget.
The things that happened neither will regret.
Saying goodbye, the girl walked.

Dropping subtle hints and tiny clues,
Accept to see them, should you choose,
But still she walked.

A simple glance in the reflection shows
A woman's face hiding the girl she knows;
So she turned and walked.

Shut her ears and seal those eyes
To all the lucky lovers who frequently sigh
Telling herself she isn't jealous is a lie.
Blindly, she walked.

Barricaded in her upgraded cell,
Full of flashbacks, her own personal Hell,
The girl walked.

All thoughts act like a trail of crumbs
Taking her back, the cycle has just begun.
Remembering, again, she walked.

She finds herself curled up in the tub,
A heart left beating, full of love.
She soon walked.

Selfish thoughts seem to taint her mind.
A prayer escapes to leave it all behind,
And she walked.

An empty box steals the patience she lacks.
A plagiarized message makes it impossible to relax.
To find comfort, she walked.

Then, a bright start, a brand new day,
A change of mind, a fresh bouquet...
Smiling, she walked.

She understands it won't be the same.
It's all a part of the complicated game.
Just a lock of memories all tied to one name.
While whispering, she walked.

A glimmer of light just up ahead.
Hopeful, yet scared, letting go of what was dead.
She'll never forget the things that were said.
And so, the girl walked."


p.s. life is beautiful <3

100 Things That Make Kirena Truly Happy...

(in NO particular order...)
1. The beautiful, true gospel!
2. Laughing for no reason.
3. Jamba Juice runs.
4. Letters in the mail.
5. Deep talks where you catch a glimpse of someone else’s soul.
6. Calla lilies.
7. Adorable chick flicks that make your heart ache.
8. Cute, GOOD books that make you cry.
9. Random text messages from someone who cares.
10. Fast and testimony meetings in the singles’ ward/college ward.
11. My beloved mother.
12. Genuine smiles from strangers.
13. Rain that soaks you in less than three minutes.
14. Lame jokes.
15. True friends.
16. Being giddy with the girls.
17. Musicals.
18. Love notes.
19. Good eyelash days.
20. Bright and shiny sun days.
21. Facebook messages.
22. New underwear.
23. Saying the word “naked”.
24. Getting a new pillow.
25. Singing my heart out in the car.
26. Hugh Jackman.
27. Going to the movies.
28. Holding a little baby.
29. Shopping at target.
30. Tall boys.
31. Watching little kids play.
32. Playing the piano.
33. Sincere compliments.
34. Dancing like there is no one watching.
35. Heartfelt gifts that really mean something.
36. Playing with little kids.
37. Cute love quotes.
38. Orange juice.
39. CHOCOLATE.
40. Big blow up toys.
41. Watching a baby sleep.
42. Running water.
43. “Validation” on YouTube.
44. Understanding what is going on in my classes.
45. Johnny Depp.
46. Birthday presents.
47. Looking at temples.
48. Being the hobo in Bridgerland.
49. Listening to soft piano music.
50. Inside jokes.
51. Smelling lilacs.
52. Cooking with my mom or buddies.
53. Songs that make you bounce with the beat.
54. Doing dishes.
55. Free money.
56. Holding hands.
57. PRINCESSES.
58. Painting my fingernails.
59. New clothes.
60. Springtime.
61. Funny people that can make me smile.
62. Baggy pants.
63. Positive thinking.
64. Rolls!
65. Pink things.
66. Eating cookie dough.
67. Things that smell good.
68. Nice, shaved, smooth legs.
69. Listening to real-life love stories.
70. Midgets.
71. Painting my mom’s toenails.
72. Waking up and realizing you get to sleep for a few more hours.
73. SPARKLES.
74. Old people love.
75. Taking pictures.
76. Crazy roller coasters.
77. Brushing my teeth.
78. Long drives in the car.
79. Painting.
80. Christmas season.
81. Lip gloss.
82. Drawing funny looking people.
83. Feeling accomplished.
84. Laying on the trampoline.
85. Men that smell delicious.
86. Autumn walks.
87. 4 Wheeling.
88. “Thinking days”.
89. Random phone calls.
90. Trick-or-treating.
91. Crying.
92. Asking/Answering questions.
93. Saying “I love you” and meaning it.
94. Betos runs with the buddies.
95. Picnics.
96. Back tickles.
97. The word “indubitably”.
98. Snowball fights.
99. Talking to someone until the wee hours of the morning about things that matter.
100. Meaningful hugs.
...Can you believe I could keep going?