Twelve Hour Work Day (need I say more)

oh boy.

here i am. at a desk. at work.
i've been here since seven o'clock.

five hours ago.

and i have hardly moved.

GIVE ME MY SANITY!

so here i am. at a desk. at work.
i've been here since seven o'clock.

five hours ago.

and i've decided to do something.
write.
on my blog.
its about time you know.

you know what else it is about time for?
KIRENA'S WORD VOMIT
(throughout the course of a loooong day)

ready for it?
muah ha ha.

do you ever laugh at your own stuff?
hee hee. now, don't judge me. i am not vain or egotistical, but i think i am sometimes quite funny. here i was. at a desk. at work, and i decided to read my old posts on my blog. i went through and read everything that i ever wrote. it took me forty minutes (pathetic).
anyways, i was reading, and DANG, i was laughing my head off! there are some very clever things in those silly posts, that i am quite proud of. i know that i cannot be alone in feeling like this... you ever think you are funny? funny enough to the point that you sit at a desk, alone, at work, during a 12 hour day, and just start laughing because you think you are so clever?
i do. i did. today. just barely. good times.

the fourth kind. BS.
let me explain. ayer, i went to the movies with my good ole pal. we saw the newest alien attraction "the fourth kind"... ooooooh. this movie, allegedly, is a true story. it takes place in a little hodunk town in alaska- nome. the movie is a mix of both actual live footage and the director's interpretation of what happened. i must admit, some of the "real footage" was a little on the creeper side... there are bits and pieces of the story that i really cannot explain. BUT honestly... ALIENS? come on. this is just one thing that i cannot get into!
the sad thing is though, these people are one hundred percent CONVINCED that they have been abducted. that they have seen these other world intelligences and had contact with them. that was almost the scariest part of the whole movie... the people that were so sure. so positive that what "happened" was real. i just have one word for it all: BIZARRE. maybe one day i will eat my words, but until some owl-obsessed creature-thing speaks sumerian to me and drags me from my bed, leads me to their leader and drills into my brain, i will remain a skeptic.

"under the weather". what the eff? what the HECK does this mean? or i guess i should ask, why in the heck does it mean what it does? who came up with such a ridiculous phrase? i mean really. why is it, that when someone says they are feeling "under the weather", we automatically know that they are a poor sickie. the english language will never cease to befuddle my blonde brain. but i have made a decision: if ya'll can say "under the weather", then i am going to start the next best trend...
"how are you doing, kirena?"
"well, now that you mention it, i am feeling a little beneath the climate."

a funny thing about life, that i have had to learn, is that sometimes, you just have to wait. patience. what a vile word. REALLY! you say it to anyone and they give you a look of horror. shiver. this has been a really hard lesson for me to learn. in all honesty, i LOATHE waiting for anything. i was not blessed with the ability to calmly and rationally wait for ANYTHING that i want. sigh. BUT, i am trying hard and i am working on it. and therefore, i have come to the conclusion that sometimes, it is completely necessary to, yes, i am going to say it, be patient (i am sad to admit). whether it be for your chili to be warmed up, the drive thru line to get smaller, a special someone to come back home, the commercials to get done so you can finish that favorite show, the weekend to come, or for an answer to fervent prayer, sometimes, you just have to sit back, take a breath, relax, and wait. or in my case, let my eyes twitch, bite my lip, tap on the desk, check the mail, glance at the clock, grunt in annoyance, and... wait.
hey now,
it's a work in progress ;)

another thing that could very well drive me to insanity: missing things/people.
i get so tired of always feeling like there is an empty part of my heart! whether it be my family because i am away at college, college because i am with my family, friends, certain boys in certain places, no matter where i am in life, it seems like there is always some little thing that i wish was there- a person that i wish wasnt missing.
you know the funniest thing about missing someone, i swear on my life as soon as they are gone, EVERYTHING begins to remind you of that person. suddenly, their name appears in movie credits, on the news, is yelled at the park, on a billboard, suddenly everyone is talking about cloverfield, it's everywhere!! everything you do reminds you of that person. eating empanadas, putting on lip gloss, walking through the mall, body spray spritzing, playing at daybreak park, the list goes on and on! you find yourself imagining and role-playing how that person would act in every situation or activity you do. every person you are with just seems to be barely out of reach of how fantastic the said "person being missed" was. isnt it truly ironic how when that person seems to leave you, suddenly they are all around you?! you find yourself smelling their scent even! what is it that makes one suddenly haunted by the one that has gone? life is truly a wonder, and i will never quite understand why these sorts of things happen.
they sure don't make being patient any easier :P

mmmmmm bread. an amazing invention :)

i suddenly have the strongest urge to play the piano. of course, those dire times always come when, there is in fact, no piano in sight. so here i sit, at a desk, at work. with no piano :P
recently, i have gained a huge love of the piano. i've always taken advantage of it- always having one around. when i left for the good ole schoolio in logan, i suddenly realized how much i loved having one nearby. i missed it (go figure). i did the only thing i knew to do- i turned to pandora.com, haha. that jim brickman radio saved me!
so i guess that is one of the best things about being home right now... i have access to a piano whenever i want it :) oh, except of course when i am stranded at work for twelve hours :P haha.
sigh. working on patience, kirena :P

two is better than one- by taylor swift and boys like girls. one of the most adorable songs i have heard for a long time! have you ever heard those words! they are simply beautiful! i wish i could write like that... i mean really! that is one song that is perfectly applicable i think to many situations. gotta love it.

michael buble. gimme a piece of that delicious man! his talent will never cease to amaze me! that is one man with a supreme voice from heaven haha. another great song: "haven't met you yet". another cute one :P

you ever have a bolt of inspiration that just rocks your socks off? i have had a few of those and one day i will talk about them more, haha. i am outta here!

adios 12 hour shift.

ah yeah ;)

love kireeena